You are going through kind of a tough time right now. You are so smart, and strive to work hard in school and get good grades. That, I hope, remains a constant. But, you are also going through some tough stuff socially with people you once called "friends" or establishing your own boundaries for what you will accept and what you will dismiss from others in this sometimes cruel world.
I foolishily thought that you could prolong your enchanting, spirited innocence at a parochial school. I was blindsided by some of the early days there. Mean girls, pigeon holing teachers, the rawness of the world arrived front and center for you.
Last night, we took a walk and you told me how you feel. How school is. How you don't like recess and wish you could just stay in the library and read. I want to swoop in and fix but I can't. I can listen, I can tell you that I felt the same way as a kid sometimes. I can tell you that if we didn't live in a medium sized city that your public school declares a large urban school district with associated problems, I would send you to public school after all you've been through. I and you can also have hope that these experiences will make you stronger, and more capabable and more happy in life because you know that you are loved by your family yet also know that sometimes people aren't kind or aren't fair and that its very important for you to beat to your own drummer and filter useless background noise when you need to.
I want you to be accepted and to feel confident. You have the foundation to do that and the full support of people who love you. I am sure you will succeed and these little trials will be but a blip on this fleeting period of your radar to a amazing life. Believe in yourself.
Love,
Mama
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