Saturday, May 14, 2011

You Cant Always Get What You Want

This moring on 105.5, they sent out their regards to the 2011 UW Grads and dedicated the classic Stones tune to their future pursiuts.  Charlotte was singing along with the Stones, I think it may become a favorite of hers, along with the Ramones and Beatles' Old Brown Shoe.

Natalie did An Awesome Job at her opening day for softball team, the Firebombs.  She made an awesome play at first base by fielding a ball and tagging out her Purple Grapes rival, Nicolette, who is also her classmate and occasional playdate commrade.  Then, in the next inning she got another Grape out, and tagged another kid but they let it go after Natalie made a diving effort to tag (and did tag) the kid.  A few "injury-related (and that is totally bunk) tears insued but Natalie got back in the game and got the next batter out on a play at first.  Learning experience for sure, our lil Firebomb.  She also got a base hit every time at bat, and ran in two runs.  Firebombs 12, Grapes 1!  Hooray!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Paris

It's hard to believe I'm here.  The most beautiful city in the world.  I've never been to Europe and for my first trip, I land in Paris.  I am still pinching myself.  I love my job and the work here has been fruitful to say the least. 

Outside of work, it's a photographers haven here.  The paradox of classic intertwined with the modern.  An IPad billboard right next to a 18th Century apartment building.  The beauty and grandeur of Notre Dame and the Ile St Louis.  The pediestrian and boat traffic along the Seine. Devouring a salmon salad, cramped in a busy St Michel outdoor cafe. The turn of the century architectural marvel that is the Eiffle Tower.  The massive and amazing Louvre and wondering what they did with all that space as a living quarters.  The authenticity of the Musse d'Orsay.  The friendly Parisians, helping me even when they parle non Anglas.  The metro system and it's people on their way to many points in the city.  Dining al fresco at a sidewalk Brasserie.  It's all been amazing.  Tomorrow, for my metro destinations, I am planning on the Champs Elysees and the Sacre Coure in Montmarte.  Also the Moulin Rouge and the tacky shops that surround it. 

If you're going to be missing your littles at home, Paris is not a bad place to do it.  This may be the point in this blog where I finally start to post photos.  Soon.  It's two more days and Au Revior to Paris.  Merci for all your hospitality!  You are everything I expected and more.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Mommyhood

I wasnt particularly fond of children growing up.  I loved my little siblings but didnt like being the gratis babysitter on call.  Or babysitting at all, really.  I loved when I was old enough to get a "real job" (in fast food!)  I didn't dream of myself with my littles, but I knew what they looked like far before they were conceived and I knew they would come, even though I didn't actively pine for them.  Until they came. 

I never knew I could love anyone so fiercely...long for their presence, try to hide myself when I got too stressed and try not to react in front of their uncluttered, sans-cynicism minds, want SO much for another person to be her best, agonize over twists and turns in life and second guess my decisions because they are so critical in the long hall.  I poured over What to Expect, the Baby Whisperer, and a heaps of girl-centric literature under many titles.

The literature, it's good to check in when time permits, but my gut is what has made the best call for these beautiful, enchanting and loving babies.   I love you girls.  I am so proud of you.  I know you can and will have the best in life because you're you.  You amaze me with your ability to thrive in school and life.  I am here for a hug and a talk (about anything) and am blessed to be able to be your mom.  When people say they worry about bringing kids into this crazy world, I look at you and listen to what you talk about.  You will change the world.  You think differently.  You are a new generation.   Natalie, you are so passionate yet you think before you speak.  You are fair.  You are sensitive. You love people and doing your part in team sports.  You are logical beyond what I'd ever imagined an eight year old can be.  You adore flowers and nature.  You love your stuffed animals.  Charlotte, you are loving.  You are so inquisitive.  You are a peacemaker.  You hold your own when you need to.  You make the most adorable observations and are a great conversationalist already at the age of four.  You love butterflies and flowers and dresses and cute shoes.  You both love to help me cook. 

You are both the most beautiful girls I have ever known.  You have striking eyes and I am floored by your beautiful, perfect faces.  You are both down to earth yet show a passion for the best things in life. For solutions.

We have traveled because I want you to see the world.   But, my best memories continue to be the conversations we have in our backyard.  Don't ever be afraid to tell me anything.  I am here for you always.  I want you to know that you have the sensibilities to make the right decisions and choices...and that's coming from your teachers as well as your parents.   You make the right choices even when I am befuddled at how to guide you.  I hope you always continue to trust your gut.  Natalie, your report cards have been perfect since you started school.  You Love To Read. You are kind to your classmates and you are driven to work hard on projects and goals and your passion for reading and doing your best in your work has been learned by your sister.  Charlotte, you are a leader.  One of your preschool friends made her parents switch classes so she could be in yours.   You are charasmatic and peaceful.

I hope you always work to know and trust yourselves.  You have it in you.  You take every opportunity to grow.  You are amazing.

You will never know how much you have changed my life from your sweet smelling, tiny and snuggly baby years to your rambunctious toddler years to preschool and to now, when you both will be schoolgirls in the fall.  I miss those snuggle puppy baby years but I am also enthralled by every stage of your lives, and the new adventures that come with each new step.

I love you!  And on this Mother's Day, I thank you, my babies.